Hi r/graphology,I posted here for an analysis of my handwriting before, but that was 2 years ago and things probably changed. I'll keep writing whatever random shit comes up on (or in??) my mind, and if I think that's not enough, I'll send excerpts of my recent entries. Just now I was watching Demolition starring Jake Gyllenhaal. I always thought the actor looked like the human version of Talking Tom. Anyways, I stopped watching when I reached 21:36 because Jake's character had beautiful cursive, and I remembered graphology existed. Anyways, the character's name is Davis Mitchell, and his wife just died in a car accident. I think if my wife died, I wouldn't even be able to go to work not because I'm crying so much that it could replenish a poor man's thirst, but because I'd feel so empty and would like to sleep the years away because maybe in my dreams I'd see my wife again. Davis Mitchell is stronger than me.I heard you can guess someone's gender with handwriting so I'd like to hear your assumptions, too. My Asian parents, for the life of them, can't read my handwriting. But my Briton tutors can read it just fine. My science tutor even said my penmanship was neat. He did struggle to read one word, though (fungi, I think. Or maybe something else). If I had to describe myself as a person, I'd say I'm kind of an idiot who likes to think and daydream about other things. I talk to myself in the mirror and sometimes pretend I'm someone else, or I'm talking to someone else. This is how I write "and": & This is how I cross out:

A song I've been listening to lately is DEATHMETAL by Panchiko. Sometimes I mispell it as "Pachinko", and when I realize my mistake, I'd say, "What's the difference?" I've also been listening to Blood Orange. My life's been feeling a bit okay ever since. This is how I write if someone of authority has to read my shit: Dear good Sir, how are you? Thank you for the email. I also hope you liked my performance and my laughter and my eyebrow raises. I hope you feel loved. I don't love you though.
Now time to write back to normal. Speaking of writing normally, I didn't write like this before. My handwriting used to be mediocre, bubbly, and kind of circular. I can't replicate it anymore, though. Here's how I write in cursive: The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog. Se méfier de l'eau qui dort.
Back to normal again. I'm a procrastinative person, and it takes a lot of time for me to open up to those around me. Even my friends. I think, if I'm really dedicated and NOT lazy, I could act like somebody else. I had to put my feelings aside once and come up with comebacks when I was talking to this boy once online just because I wanted to get to know more about him. I realized if I used more slang such as "yo", "dawg" and "deadass", people online would think I'm a guy so I've been doing that ever since so that people would find me funny and not send dick pics to me. I think I've gone lengths to make myself seem more androgynous online. I just don't wanna deal with trouble unless I'm actively seeking it. My life is pretty boring. I'm a homeschooler and I don't like telling my parents my real feelings. If there's one thing I could change about myself, it would be my appearance. I would've gotten anything I wanted if I was HOT SHIT!